I’ve always felt a longing to be a mummy.
I’ve always dreamed of that positive test.
I’ve always looked forward to feeling those kicks inside my belly
I’ve always looked forward to seeing my baby for the first time and getting those first kisses and cuddles.
I’ve always thought labour and giving birth would be so painful that would be all I could think of
I’ve always imagined what motherhood would be like but I honestly didn’t even come close.
It’s such an absolutely amazing experience. You’re constantly overwhelmed with love for the beautiful little baby you’ve created inside your body. Everytime I see that little face my heart melts, and I’m completely relaxed and full of love. I’ve never felt such calm and peace as I have since being pregnant with Elijah and holding him in my arms.
There is just no experience like it. My heart aches if Elijah is sad or in pain. I absolutely love being fortunate enough to witness all of Elijah’s milestones and watch his little face as he is filled with wonder while he sees or feels something new.
You and I spend everyday together and I am so beyond thankful for being able to do that. I get to enjoy every single moment with my sweet baby and let him know his mummy is with him.
I miss feeling those little kicks and nudges
I miss feeling all of Elijah’s hiccups
I miss my pregnant belly
But most of all I miss knowing Elijah was in my belly safely growing and always with me
These words sum up my feelings about motherhood; Blessed. Thankful. Overwhelming love. Tiring but amazing. In awe. Magical. Complete